Today was really long. Really tiring. Both emotionally and physically. But I won't get into the nitty gritty details-that's what Caringbridge is for. So instead, I pay tribute to a 'Little Warrior'.
Around May time frame, near the beginning, my DTP sis, Roxanne, told me of a little girl with a brain tumor. Lindsey. When Roxanne was sharing a room with her at the hospital in Alabama, Lindsey wasn't doing well. They weren't expecting her to make the night. But here I am, August 19, paying tribute to a brave little warrior who held on much longer than the docs expected. She hung on, fighting courageously with the strength of Hercules. Over time, I grew to love her like I would a little sister. She was about the age of some of my little cousins. I received strength from her example as she defied the odds and hung on. But last night, my little hero moved on to bigger and better things. Right now, she is pain free, free from the physical body that trapped her free and innocent spirit. When I found out about her passing, my heart began to ache so much that it physically hurt. I can only imagine. What if she was my cousin? They were close to the same age. I can only picture how hard it would be to lose her. I know that this little girl was an example to thousands of people. Her strength and courage lifted many. And her example continues to live on.
As I go through this, I remember how important it is to look for the tender mercies in our lives. I have so much to be thankful for. Sure, my diagnosis isn't so hot. But I'm alive and fully functioning (well, most of me). I'm able to talk with my family. To play with my little sister. To help lift and strengthen those around me. I may be in the hospital a lot, but I am able to maintain a somewhat normal life. I am so grateful for everything in my life. Life is SO good. Amazing family that I get to be with for all eternity. A bestest bud in the whole wide megacosm (Who has, by the way, made me promise that I would never let go and give up. I told her don't worry, I'm not going anywhere <3). An amazing support group. Close friends I consider family through something that people often take for granted. If it wasn't for facebook (not to sound like a facebook addict), I wouldn't have met some of my closest friends-friends I consider to be brothers and sisters-friends who are there for me no matter what. Everyone in my life has been such a strength to me. How could I ever feel like my life was horrible? I have so much to be thankful for! Heavenly Father continues to show His hand in my life. I don't know where I'd be without the gospel. My Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ have lifted me when I was down. They have allowed me to grow and strengthen those around me. He has blessed me with SO many talents and has given me endless opportunities to share them with others to bless their lives.
I want to remind all of you reading this to watch for the small things in your life. Even though things may start to look dark and hopeless, there's always a ray of sunshine somewhere. You just have to look for it. We are blessed with SO much. Take a look at your life. There's so much we've been given. I don't think I'll ever take my blessings for granted ever again.
Please include Lindsey's family and friends in your prayers. They need strength and support. They need that spiritual boost that will help them get through the death of our little hero.